If you read my last two posts you know that I have been
feeling a bit of stress lately: having a reality check that the big race is
coming real soon and experiencing a lack of motivation.
Last week, I promised myself to make a change in the way I
think. Turning every negative though into positives no matter how hard it is
and no matter how fake I might feel. The power of the mind is so important in
building confidence and embracing the journey.
A good friend of mine is going to Kona very soon (Road2IronMan.com). He had to
overcome an ankle injury a few months back. He had all the reasons to be unmotivated
and quit. By the time he would recover, he would only have less than two months
to train for a full Ironman. But he did it. He turned his spirit around and is
going for it. Working his body and mind to the fullest all the way to the
finish line.
He had a few words with me. I am grateful he did!
This week was a good training week. I swam hard. I biked
hard. and I ran hard. All consistent, painful and enjoyable! :) I am coming back strong! No Regrets!
Here is some of the messages he has been sending me randomly
making sure his World partner is on her toes!
I know it’s been a while since I have posted anything. I
have not been feeling myself lately and did not want to share my negative
energy.. but after all I am not super woman so here’s why:
In 30 days I leave for New Zealand. Am I ready? Not at all!
I have spent over 14 months anticipating this upcoming once
in a lifetime exciting adventure. I would not say to the extreme of putting my
life on hold but my life has revolved around triathlon: my friends, social
gatherings, eating habits, and let’s not forget my budget and vacation planning.
Fourteen months ago, I competed at the national level with a thought of
competing among the best in the world and the opportunity to visit New Zealand.
Although I am certainly not one of the top triathlete in the world, I
took the opportunity seriously and dedicated part of my life to be disciplined
and dedicated to triathlon. And although I have had a breakthrough by winning the
age group division several times and took one Female overall podium spot, I do
not feel I am ready. I have kept myself motivated throughout the past few
months but I am now wondering if all that hype and excitement wasn’t premature…
I am 30 days away and feel like I should be 6 months away. I am not even
looking forward to competing in Escape to Miami Triathlon which is 1 week away.
When discussing race schedule with my coach, Escape to Miami was supposed to be
a tune up to the World’s Championship. I had in mind of winning my division and
I am now thinking of taking the race as a brick workout.
Why this up and down? Why this short fall of motivation and
excitement now? Am I taking this race too seriously and unable to focus and
cherish the moment? I am usually one to scream, cheer and motivate my fellow
teammates to take it all in and have no regrets… Why aren’t I able to follow my
own advice and exhort this positive source of power and aspiration I know I
have in me?
At this time it is a mental game! I am very aware that mental
strength is crucial at this time. This video always puts me back in place,
makes me realize how grateful I am to have such an opportunity. I have thirty days:
thirty days to refine what I have been working for, thirty days to change my negative
downer attitude and gain that confidence I once had. One of my greatest
fear in life is regret.
If I have to watch this video for the next 30 days, I will.
If you hear me be unenthusiastic or pessimistic slap me! Regret is not an
option!
